20 Time Individual Reflection

It all began that day when we started months ago. I was a bit hopeless in figuring out what to do in this sort of huge long-term project. I wanted an adventure that can be found in the project that I was doing but I had many concerns. At first, when I was brainstorming the idea, I had thought about making a game, that reflects the actions of the person. This makes each actions have more thought, consideration and more value as the game progresses. I had to scrap the idea after figuring out how long a sort of timeline I would have to make in order to build this complex game. I settled upon photography, and I decided that the topic would be awareness in nature. I was inspired by the beauty of nature, after going outdoors for so many times. It was also the same thing that helped me noticed the other side that was hurting nature. I decided to make a portfolio, or a collection of photos that would help show this side that we were doing. Essentially, I was trying to raise awareness about nature. I wanted to make this project be a fancy screen of good photos here and there, and showing what we can do to restore that feature. I thought It would be a good plan, take photos, get back, find more photos, and organize them into one place. There were a lot of problems that came on me, and every idea I had backfired instantly. Most programs can't handle the amount of photos I had, so I had to cut back on a few programs. There were also no photos of back then, so I was stuck there. I decided on trying to show deeper meaning in each photo I took, hoping to seek the same goal by a different way. I had also learned many things about myself as I went on, and it was mostly about the negative things. I had a dark side I hid with a fake smile, and one I tried to avoid in every way. This affected the choices I would make, and distanced me from others because of the possibilities that could happen. I thought I could hide it away, but I can't run from that buried past. If I could have done this project over, maybe I should have found someone to help me, and help me feel secure within myself. Maybe be able to find the right topic, or a good idea that would work between us. Whatever happens to this project, I believe that it is far from over, but in a planet that need to be saved, there are many things that could be improved. For now, until I improve myself, I guess I can shelf this project in my memories.